// What TV show makes you laugh the loudest?//

Mr. Show, The IT Crowd, The British Office, 30 Rock.

Ask me anything

// would you ever kiss a girl?//

Yes and I have.

Ask me anything

// O//

In a flash, like the sour stare of a camera’s lens, my mind caught a glimpse of a new understanding. I had discovered that a large portion of my motivation was due to negative feedback, that is not to say that I am not motivated by the opposing side, but to say that I have discovered that I am indeed motivated by both positive and negative charges.

It was made obvious to my by own thought process after a co-worker said “New York, will eat you alive.”

!Fuck, if it does it does but I won’t let your doubt stop me. You can never know what any of your actions will bring by doing nothing.

Besides, what is life? What is life without ideas, dreams, hopes? What is life without adventure? What is life without pain, sorrow, or doubt? What is life without out experience, or expression? You do and say nothing, you will see nothing.

2 B R O 2 B - Kurt Vonnegut. You should check out this book. I’ve been reading it on my Android phone using Aldiko. http://www.aldiko.com

// The Consumer’s Thoughts.//

It’s time. To make time. To mend, bend, and break time.

Convientant store. Eating less and thinking more.

When the rain starts to pour I soak myself in the pure.

The near the nearly the here the there the far the inside outside future cars

space and time in my eyes stars we cry

and empathize and socialize and eating less and thinking more.

// The Bourgeois And Me…//

My internet service provider, which is also the internet service provider for several other individuals within this nation was acting amiss today. Someone presented a metaphor trying to explain to a coworker of mine that the internet was like water and the service provider was the pump to the well. They exclaimed that the well was full and the pump was working but the water was being pump elsewhere.

What? Where is the internet going? Ha. It made me also think Y2K and the possibility that perhaps our estimations were just a little over a decade off. Huh…who knew. Y2K always makes me think of other conspiracies like the end of the world. If that is to happen are we right or wrong about our best guesses thus far? I don’t know if I believe in any of that mumbo-jumbo but it’s interesting to think about. It’s also interesting to think about how little I have written this year, for being my greatest passion I sure have shown it little limelight.

In fact, it saddens me how little I have created. I have worked more consistently this year but I have also played equally consistently. Yet, I have rendered my creativity very minimally.

Endlessly I feel half exhaustion, half ecstasy, in every inhale and every exhalation. So in conclusion, what is real to you, what is illusion?

// I’ve Slept Since Then//

It’s 3.06 am. I could still get plenty of sleep if I could fall back asleep now. I’m not sure why I cannot sleep more than two hours at a time. My mind won’t let me slumber so I’m here typing on tumblr. Lately, things have been a little confusing, a little frustrating but I’m still pressing on as positively as I can.

I’m missing certain people and not sure or confident in the outcome of communication. I feel the limbo taking hold. Speaking of limbo, I am two time winner of the Saturday Roadhouse Limbo, which is not much of a surprise considering I am exactly five foot. Some say it’s cheating but I say that short people must have advantages in at least one sport…or game…what have you.

I have got to gather myself and writing is and has always been my most sacred of releases. It’s a real shame how I have gone so long without writing more than three sentences.

Overwhelmed is the atmosphere of my current existence. I’m happy to say I have maintained two jobs since February and have slowly but surly been putting some money back. I got to see Bright Eyes in Saint Louis at The Pageant just last week and it was definitely the highlight of this summer thus far. My friend Stevi and I are going to do our best to finally try out for American Idol. I’m still not sure what song I want to perform.

I feel things growing and dying all around me. I feel so inspired one moment and then completely unaware or unattached to my surroundings. I am told that my limbo state is a fine state and natural state to be in at my age. I’m still unsure. I rest un-assured ahha. That is if I can rest.

I have done a lot of thinking about the perceived permanence of certain feelings or relationships. It is most certainly part of my confusion and frustration. I wish I had the proper words gathered for every amount of feeling I need to express, but I give you what I feel; instantly, unedited, and transparent.

I’m unwilling to yield all of my emotion to the wimps of another human. It scares me, the idea of needing rather than wanting, especially, in regards to relationships. I am afraid of being left so I leave but it is not that simple.

I wonder if I have any talent left in any part of my body? My introspection as of late has been more of highs and lows then I feel are usual. But that could be a lie. I could always feel this way every day and forget each night. You know, “I’ve slept since then”.

flapjacksblog2 asked: What is your favorite cartoon character?

That is a tough one, my most favorite is probably Angela Anaconda.

flapjack-theking asked: What is your favorite Cartoon Network show?

My favorite Cartoon Network show of all time or current circulation?

flapjack-theking asked: I like candy, do you like candy?

Yes I do like candy.

iloveyoubutivechoosenmytshirts asked: Your Memory Is A Stain

Yes!?

// Adzy Mack//

Hey fellow tumblrs. Check out my friend Adzy Mack’s new mixtape, available for free download via the links bellow.

P.S. I’m featured in a the track Star! Enjoy and share!

Adzy Mack Mixtape 3 

1. Welcome to my Mix

http://www.mediafire.com/?rtur okyw58avd71

2. Dreamer

http://www.mediafire.com/?c9jw6xakk6ja9cm

3. Alien

http://www.mediafire.com/?6wm8d8ob5oglqa4

4. Need This (Feat. Nate-B)

http://www.mediafire.com/?qasgc5pbdne2zuw

5. My Angel (Feat. D-Boi & DFS)

http://www.mediafire.com/?nsb9jkxc519ntrc

6. Head In The Sky

http://www.mediafire.com/?lzbkwpnx1mfkst9

7. Light Up (Feat Nate-B) 

http://www.mediafire.com/?z9z3vfbsbendbih

8. Jump Off

http://www.mediafire.com/?isci2di9cnxphr3

9. Star (Feat. Alexis)

http://www.mediafire.com/?hr232xr8rwq82wd

10. The Song Goes On

http://www.mediafire.com/?ljo7m2a51m5iw6o