// It’s Better If You Don’t Know//

Loneliness and I aren’t friends.
Neither of us understood the other.
We argued for hours over the most minimal issues.
It brings a strange smile to my face now.
I just wish he was still around.

I’m breaking down like never before.
Sold my soul to get comfortable
and now it’s fading
and I’m feeling cold again.

I want to hold you
but I hold back.
What a strange sense of oxygen
What a strange moron I am.

I’m terrible insane
honestly
in every way.

Look in my eyes 
tell me otherwise
you know you’ll lie
eventually

evidently, I’m unusual.
I despise perception believed to be concrete
there is nothing concrete
you little strange ones who believe 
that nothing can be changed will always be
just enough

the enemy of the best 
is 
JUST ENOUGH

I’m so ill 
my stomach churns
when I think of your satisfaction in the mundane

well go walk in your everyday glory
it will fade today or the next
nonetheless 
sooner than later
you will see
eye for eye
shall never reign again
we live and bleed in different times

it’s more complex
it’s a sad fact that most of you cannot see this
but when it come down it it

loneliness and I were never friends
I don’t want to die alone
I think about future plans and such
and it makes me so anxious at times
but I inhale that next breath like it’s my last
because at any moment I could move or leave this earth.

I don’t need judgement but neither do you
so shut that door and open anew

I write this to tell you what I know
my lord how the times have changed
and keep changing so
nothing ever seems as good or as bad as it truly was
so take it in, soak it up, and let the good times roll.

I’m addicted baby, you can fill the rest in.
It’s better if you don’t know.
I don’t need judgement but neither do you
so shut that door and open anew